What is it about winter that makes you feel even more single than ever? I say winter, we're only just in autumn, but this weather has been so horrendous it could easily be November - particularly as I was sitting by a pool at a lovely 27 degrees this time last week!
In the summer it seems a lot easier to socialise - you go out and drink in the sunshine with friends, enjoy the good weather and don't spend as much time at home as you do any other time of year. I guess it's that "summer holiday" feeling we still remember from school - you just feel more free. The nights are longer so there's more time to make the most of your evening, even if you know you have to be at work at 9 the next morning.
Winter has the opposite effect - nights are shorter and the cold, miserable weather makes you want to stay wrapped up warm in the safety of your own house. If you're alone, it just drives it home. I know I watch much more TV in the winter - mostly romantic dramas, of course - which, again, really reiterate the fact that I don't my happily ever after and it's a long way off. There's not even a sniff of a Willoughby or Wickham, let alone a Darcy or Wentworth.
When I got back from my holiday, I thought to myself that it was time for me to focus on myself. I'm not too happy with how I look and my confidence isn't great, so I know I should focus on me for a while. I know I should ignore the dramas of chasing boys and going on dates - which has done nothing for my self-esteem of late. However, I can't help the niggling lonely feeling...
But I'm just going to focus on all the cliches - "you need to love yourself before someone can love you" and "you'll find someone when you stop looking". They make sense. So with a new resolve I am going to a) eat healthily, b) be more active and c) be happy! The rest will all figure outself out I guess.